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Team Ayu Message 247

The following was posted by ayu:
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MIRACLLLLEE!!!
No. 247 2008-8-18 1:34 AM

It's a miracle!!!!!!!

Recording turned out extremely good (*^_^*)

No way,

Sooooo much fuuuuuuuuuuunnn~~~~~ ＼(^O^)／♪

Today when I went in for recording I was in very high spirits, so in the vocal booth I was standing there alone & sweating like a pig, and after that during band rehearsal I sang really energetically and got really into it so then my voice got all squeaky, and after that during dance rehearsal Zin was rolling on the floor laughing at me, but before I knew it my squeaky voice had fixed itself, so I went back to finish recording at the studio....

So all in all, it was a miraculous day.

I'm so tiiiired.

I'm sleepy, but the second season of HEROES (that overseas drama) is on the brain...

Hmm.

I'm gonna go watch it! (*^_^*)v
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Team Ayu Message 242

The following was posted by ayu:
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TadaiMAMBO (^O^)/ o/~
No. 242 27 July 2008 4:37 AM

I've come back hoooommme~~~~~~~.

After having worked full time in Hong Kong, I'm as tired as you'd expect (^^`)

And, with this miraculous work done, every day is sunny!!!!!!!
My magic powers of bringing rain wherever I go seem to have passed, men & women who bring sunshine were always around (^_^)b

Buuut, since it was such a long time, I'm sunburned~~~.
If I leave my skin alone, it's impossible for it to be pure white again, so it'll be a nice brown tan for awhile~~~~~∈^0^∋∈^0^∋∈^0^∋ o/~

Ultra-bubbly. (*^_^*)(*^_^*)(*^_^*)

Anyway, this year's (or next year's?) calendar is REALLY nice!~* Look forward to it~ (^.^)smooch!

And I have no vacation time. Up next is the recording of the new song I've written! o/~ o/~ o/~
It's a REALLY great song, so I'm going to do my best on it! (｀_´)v
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Translation by Delirium-Zer0

A COMPLETE ~ALL SINGLES~ 9.10 RELEASE!

Here's a new item in ayu's 10th anniversary celebration - a collection of her singles on 3 CDs, and a special re-recording of the classic non-single, "Who..."!

Available in a 3CD+DVD configuration as well, the DVD includes the never before released "Limited TA Live Tour" from back in 2002, as well as her headlining a-nation performances from 2002-2007. The "anniversary box" edition also includes a 48 page booklet of alternate takes from single covers, never before seen!

Priced to own at the special prices of ¥4,800 (3CD+DVD) and ¥3,800 (3CD), the collection will be released on September 10, 2008.

Click "read more" for a complete breakdown of the tracklisting.

Team Ayu Message 241

The following was posted by ayu:
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Busybusy -.-;;
No. 241 2008-07-20 (Sunday) 12:23 AM

Yup.

There's so much I have to do so my head is half-asleep.
In any case, it's been a long time since my last writing, because there were topics I could touch on (lol) but I had ZERO confidence about them!!! YAAAAAAY (^O^)/(^O^)/

Anyway, I, even with my head all barely conscious, am going to Hong Kong & Macau starting tomorrow...
It seems like it'll be reeeeeeeeeeeeeeally hot...

And yet,
Hong Kong is in it's rainy season. Huh? Meh...

Even though it's already time for rain, for the weather to be nice when I'm suddenly coming, isn't that pretty cool?

I shouldn't say that though, in case the rain gets mad at me.

I'm sorry, rain! (m-_-m) (Apologizing now)

By the way, it's magazine & calendar shoots that I'm doing.
So I was from Planet Halfasleep, but now I'm from Planet Wobblyonmyfeet. ^_^;v

I really should be packing~~~~~~~!!!!!!
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Team Ayu Message 236-237

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It's really late, but...
No. 236 3 July 2008 (Thurs) 4:59 AM

Everyone I met nationwide, really & truly, thank you!!!!!!!!

Really, I can only sum it up with that one word, "thank you".

On the last day, everyone who cooperated with Zin's Surprise plan, really thank you!!!!!!!
Before the performance, in the rain, everyone was keeping on their feet. So when I heard it, the moment everyone's voices became one, I REALLY got goosebumps, and even the instigator of all this was crying sympathy tears.

I didn't hear about it until we left, but I did hear that even Kayanocchi was crying sympathy tears over on the back stage.

Oh that face. (lol)

I wonder if I should have said that. That's me digging into Kayanocchi.

Incidentally, Zin cried when we left, remembering it.

So, next up is to make really nice summer memories together-----! o/~

This is TA.
TA is "TeamAyu", a significant thing.
Therefore, I think I have a right to request that people stop freely publishing the thoughts I convey here.

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I forgot to say!!!
No. 237 3 July 2008 (Thursday) 5:32 AM

My video letter, shown at Peco's live show, was shot during the break between shots on the day of my CM shoot!!!

Really, it was just barely squeezed in. (lol)

No, but it served its purpose, i think it was really quite nice.

People were commenting, saying "ayu seems differennnnt!" and that was true!!!!
I was forgetting to say that!!!!!

Oh yeah, after Yoyogi ended, I removed the extensions.
So I once again have short hair.
While doing that, my nails came off too, so now I have my natural short fingernails too~.

I'll upload a photo of this happy accident. o/~

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Translated by Delirium-Zer0

Team Ayu Message 235

The following was posted by ayu:
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Whether laughing or crying.
No. 235 29 June 2008 (Sunday) 1:10 AM

Tomorrow, the curtain will be closed on the Japan leg of the tour.

I have received thoughts from everyone I've met all over the
country, those who can't come to the show tomorrow, everyone
who answered me with all their strength, and even
everyone who's going to the show tomorrow, and thanks
to these precious, precious feelings all over my
whole body, I feel I am able to sing.

Because absolutely we're having a wonderful time.

No matter what's happening in a given moment, the thought of it burns into our hearts.

Today, everyone's love was flooding the venue,
and I felt like I could cry from the very first song.

All throughout Japan, you all, who love me so much,
were gathering together.
I truly, truly thank you.

Tomorrow, with all our hearts, let's decorate the last show with so many different smiles & tears all together, and make the show the best.

I'm doing this show with all my might!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Translation by Delirium-Zer0

Team Ayu Message 234

The following was posted by ayu:
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I am...
No. 234 28 June 2008 (Sat) 2:20 AM

...a girl who keeps her promises! (`_')vBEEP!

Yep, I make such judgment because I have come to talk about Countdown Live, following through with the declaration in my last entry.

But that said, considering what I'm going to write, I'm not sure how or to what extent I should convey my thoughts. I'm having trouble with that.

So because I'm having issues there, I'm just gonna convey this to all you who I wish to see in Yoyogi, with the plain & clear feelings that I have, sticking to the honest feelings I have in my own heart.

Alright.
I hesitated on this. And even now I'm hesitating.
However, I'm going to say what I feel.

After my birthday, in the fall of last year, I was busy working on the album.
During that time, I stayed in LA for quite awhile, so I could do my photoshoots & recording sessions.
News of Aneki's* death had come from my mother, only immediately reaching Bancho**, Ohji***, and my closest staff members, it seemed.
But everyone had discussed it, and they decided that telling me this would make it too hard for me to work, and they said I shouldn't know until I returned to Japan.

I didn't know what was going on, so in a very happy-go-lucky & easygoing way, I said, "Hmm, how come I'm not getting any e-mails?"

They revealed the truth, and I found it to be extremely bitter.

So I finished all my work and came back home that very day. When I got to my house, Mommy was there.
Since we're not living together (in case you were wondering), she didn't say "okaeri", but her eyes were filled to the brim with tears as she started to say, "Ayu, Aneki has gone to Heaven."

I rushed out of the house, on my own. I got into a taxi, and very purposefully I went to Aneki's house.
I hadn't been able to comprehend everything until I saw that the power was off.

Then, I saw Aneki's ashes.
I don't know how long, but I was silent, remaining crouched down.
It really took a considerable amount of time before I was able to cope with the reality of all of it.

Having these kinds of feelings, the end of the year was a blur for me.

With a feeling of nothingness, I went through a number of events, and I ended up building a bigger & bigger wall around me.

That was how Countdown Live was.
The show Aneki was looking forward to.

After the show on the 31st finished, my heart was ruled by huge anxiety, something I haven't felt since then until now.

That's... wow, how to explain it...
I can't aptly explain it with words, but...

Even when I thought to myself, "I have to be able to make it somehow!!!", I, who should have been determined to keep running, was extremely depressed anyway.

Naturally, with everyone who came to the venue and even with everyone who just watched on TV, I had the best & most amazing time on the 30th and 31st, and, this is an absolute fact, I was really happy.

However, I gave myself away, so I think many of you were probably able to understand.

No, absolutely, I think you all understood.

So during those two days, there was the issue with my left ear not working, and it scared me. At the same time, I thought to myself, I am a vocalist, but again, I'm also a human being, and I need to be able to lead this team. I thought I couldn't play both roles.

In a performance, singing the songs is the most important thing. As such, the most basic and most fundamental #1 thing wasn't really there.
If I said anything as I was right then, I had no persuasive power. Moreover, this thing with Aneki influenced me to the point where even my judgement had been considerably shaky.

One song, and then another... whenever I go to sing, my hearing condition continues to get worse, and my mood is nothing but impatient.

When I think like that, I can't sing. I can't be heard...

Without hitting on the problem, I was always getting angry and getting sad, feeling chagrin, but even in my head it was a jumble.

Anyway... even if you just watch the DVD, since there was alot of crying during the show, so you can probably understand.

One way or another New Year's Day arrived, thanks to the love of all the guests there, and the many wonderful staff & band members and dancers, but I was still always thinking.

Can I never sing again like I used to?
Would that concert become my last?

For a very very long time, I was thinking so many, SOOO MANY different things like this.

Thinking about it & thinking about it & thinking about it some more, I struggled to arrive at one solution.
And then, the answer came

Keep on singing.

Just that.
From the day I decided that, I made a vow never again to complain or make any excuses.

And, as one of my ambitions for this year, I have been coming here to write, telling everyone my feelings.

Do you remember when that was said?

So during this year's long tour, I've been able to do absolutely everything.
Every day, every single day was filled up, and I was busy both mentally and physically.
But absolutely, I wasn't defeated. I couldn't be defeated.
Because I made a promise to everyone.

Once again, like I have in the past -- no, like I will from now on -- I've become strong enough to really stand on that grand stage. I've been thinking that during rehearsals for many months now.

Since then I've realized how quickly time is passing. It's surprising to think that tomorrow is already Yoyogi.

Lots of things happened during the tour....
I didn't think of these circumstances as challenging, though.
Because, even with all that stuff happening,
I know that you all understand, everyone.

It might be reckless to say, but even when feeling desperate inside, the time spent with everyone during this tour was truly the best time. My memories of those days shine more & more, quickly & strongly, and I become a better person for it.

I feel the importance of my 10th anniversary acutely throughout my whole self.

I began the tour at Yoyogi.
I clearly remember every exchange between my heart & everyone else's since that day.
Everyone's smiling faces, tear-stained faces, perplexed faces, I love aaaallll of them.

Everyone's feelings are always transmitted to me.

I am very fortunate.

I thought, if I had to lose my left ear, it's alright that I'll keep trying with only my right ear.
But that's not quite right.

I haven't lost anything.

Because everyone has offered to become my left ear.

So my ears are stronger now.

That having been said, although I was smiling about this, and those were beautiful thoughts, this writer has become useless.
The screen is getting blurry, so that's no good.

But I'll hold these tears back until the last day.

The tour continues into the Fall, but for right now, the domestic part of the tour ends with the 2 days in Yoyogi........

I look forward to some serious fighting spirit!!!!!
Let's make it the best two days ever,
Yoyogi-----------------!!!!!

While saying that, I was secretly feeling very anxious.

Thank you for reading this until the very end.

Aneki, please always watch over me!!!!!
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Translated by Delirium-Zer0